domingo, junio 26, 2005

My Second Shot at Life

(Note: Tonight, I can't sleep and I don't know why considering that I'm really tired. I tried to count sheep, yet, to no avail (and already on my 101st sheep), I can't seem to close my eyes for even a second. Then, I started having thoughts of what happened to my life for the past few days. So, I decided to update my blog to give you guys an update of the different events that took place in my life for the past few weeks)


Man will occasionally stumble over the truth, but most of the time he will pick himself up and continue on.
-Churchill-


Just a few weeks ago, I thought it was the end of my life. It was a typical day. I woke up early to have a workout in the gym since I haven't done this for quite some time due to my very busy schedule. In the middle of the workout, I felt terribly exhausted. I decided to stop and have a relaxing shower at home. As I was about to leave, things started to turn blurry. My head was aching and I was starting to lose my balance while I was walking. As I left the gym, I felt that I could no longer walk back home. I decided to look for the nearest restaurant to have something to eat thinking that this will solve my problem. As I was about to enter the restaurant, my vision started to pixelize and darkness fell over the place. I suddenly felt a very sharp pain in my head and the last thing I remembered was uttering the words "Lord, I don't want to die, yet." After that, I lost my consciousness.


The next thing I know, people were surrounding me and checking if I was alright. I woke up with a heavy feeling in my head. Just when I thought everything was over, the sharp pain went back and I tried to sit down in one corner. While sitting down and while my vision was still blurry, I was watching the people passing by the street. Then, I started talking to God. I uttered these words:


Lord thank you for giving me a wonderful life - great family and loyal
friends. Thank you also for giving me many talents and skills that have
helped me throughout my life. If this is my time to leave this earthly
life, then I leave my life unto Your hands. Thank you for giving me this
shot at life. My experience here on earth has been full of challenges
and struggles and yet, I always emerged victorious through hard
work,answered prayers and the support of my loved ones. Prepare me
Lord to face You in case this is really my time. I ask for forgiveness
for all my sins. Let me meet you with a pure and chaste heart.


I uttered these words, surprisingly, in a very calm way considering my painful condition. Just when I thought that a precious vein had erupted (which meant instant death in most cases), the pain slowly went away. My vision went back to normal and the first thing I saw were the skies. They were especially beautiful that day. The clouds created a weird yet enlightening formation that I can't explain. Then as the clouds moved, the sun suddenly gave a strong burst of its light. It was simply breathtaking. I felt better than ever and walked home as if nothing actually happened that day.


Sometimes, we have these turning points in our lives that we can't totally comprehend. Only time will tell what this experience really means to me. However, one thing is for sure. I consider this experience a wake-up call amidst my busy and stressful life. Sometimes, I get too busy that I forget the essentials of life - God, my family and friends and His awesome creations. Moreover, this experience allowed me to plan my life. It raised the question - What is my real purpose in life? Perhaps, I did not die that day since God has something more in store for me. Maybe, God has a bigger plan for me than I have for myself. Through constant prayers and by keeping an open ear and heart to God, I know that I will soon know the role I have to play on this earth.


I felt that through this experience, I was given another shot at life. I felt that I was reborn to be a better person. This experience made me value life knowing that it can be taken away from me in an instant. As they say, Carpe Diem! Seize the day!


Enjoy every minute. There's plenty of time to be dead.
-Anonymous-